I wrote this post a month before our daughter, Lily was born. I never felt it was complete, but after reading it again I felt it was worth posting.
I have to admit, I have really enjoyed being pregnant! Now that this pregnancy is nearing the end, I am a little saddened by the fact that I won't be pregnant any longer. Even though the past few weeks have left me feeling 'I'm so over being pregnant', the uncomfortableness, the lack of more than 4 hours of sleep at a time - I have cherished every moment during this pregnancy!
I really started thinking in the past few days what not being pregnant means... Baby time! That I am going to be a mama, that there will be this new being in the world - one which will be my responsibility (along with Z's) to raise and mold and shape into an amazing person! THAT freaks me out a little!!! Don't get me wrong, I wasn't one of these women who just wants to be pregnant and doesn't think about what happens next - I do want to be a mother and raise a family and all that it entails! I think you just get caught up in the moment of being pregnant, of working full time, of planning for when baby arrives, that you forget about the actual presence of a baby!
For a while now, it has just been Z and I! And I love our moments together, just us two. In a few short weeks, it'll be 'just us two' plus one! I'm both thrilled and nervous about how this addition will affect our relationship! I am excited to see Z as a daddy, I know he will be wonderful and the thought makes my heart swell! But there is also this small part of me that doesn't want to share him! I think about how raising a child will change both of us, and am excited to embark on this journey together and apprehensive at the same time!
Monday, September 24, 2012
Saturday, September 22, 2012
I have tried to make time in the past two weeks to put together our birth story... between feedings, diaper changes, and just trying to get some sleep! My amazing husband posted our birth story over on his blog, SoggyStargazer. I think you'll find that his memory of the event is much clearer than mine would be ;-)
Sunday, September 16, 2012
How far along: 40 Weeks
Baby's size: About 19 to 22 inches, 7 lbs! The size of a watermelon! I think baby is around 8+ lbs now!
Sleep: no changes from last week, up every hour
Maternity Clothes: no changes
Food cravings: watermelon! Fitting! ;-)
Food aversions: no changes
Symptoms I have: bruised feeling pelvis, sore back, just uncomfortable all over...but I know baby is worth the aches!
Doctor’s Appointment: every Friday! This weeks appt showed that I was a loose 1 cm, 0 effacement. Ultrasound showed that bany has plenty of amniotic fluid!
Movement: Baby is still so very active! Keeping me up nights ;-) movements are very strong!
Belly Button: no change, so close to popping out all the way, but not quite!
Gender: the great mystery!!!
What I’m looking forward to: Meeting baby!!!!
Total weight gained as of 40 weeks: 33 lbs